Our Twentieth Anniversary
This isn't actually a poem. It's more of a letter I wrote to my mate as we celebrated 20 years together as a married couple. We have been together longer than that and despite all the trials and troubles we've experienced we still can act like a couple of kids. In the end, that's really all that matters, that we enjoy life together.
I asked the wonderfully talented Starwind_2X if he could draw a picture of Carvis and myself for this occasion and he drew one of my favorite things to do.
My darling Carvis,
Many people would say we have travelled a long distance together but we both know it has been a short journey so far.
The road has been rocky at times and there have even been periods where we seemed to be on the edge of a precipice but each time we have joined forces and fought our way past.
We both carry scars, some caused by both of us and some caused by other factors, and wish that neither of us was scarred at all.
Even now we stand in a rocky area as we wonder about our jobs although this area is not as rocky as some other times have been.
As we stand here and look back at our life together the road doesn't seem as rocky as it did at those times and the smooth sections which never seemed to last long enough seem to be longer now.
The branches where a decision would have changed our direction are still visible but have shrunk to small bumps.
The road ahead of us is clouded, as it has always been.
How much further the road stretches we don't know.
Both of us are aware of how fragile life is and know that today or tomorrow could be our last day together or that we might have another 20 years together.
This isn't our last look back at our life together, this is just a time to pause and make sure we're still going forward together.
Do I regret anything?
Of course, both of us do.
Would I change anything?
That's a hard question to answer.
I would like to have thought a bit more before I said some of the things I did or did some of the things I did but if changing even one word or deed in the past means I change who and what we are now and where we stand in our friendships and values, then no, I would not change anything.
What do I consider is the highlight of our life so far?
Mousira.
What do I want to do in the future?
I'm not sure.
I know I want to do more with my life and find something I will be happy doing.
I have friends I want to meet in person.
I want to get back into writing and see if I could get published.
I want to be with you.
I love you.
Happy 20th Anniversary, Carvis.
Vixen
May 4, 2004
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